My weight loss journey is moving forward smoothly!
I’ve decided to continue not checking the scale right now. A friend of mine told me it’s best to not look initially because my body is changing, as it builds muscle and reduces fat. And since muscle weighs more than fat because of its greater density, the number on that stupid scale can be deceiving and greatly reduce one’s confidence when they need it most so scale, back off!
She also mentioned it’s best to just see how I feel with the changes rather than focus on the number and you know what? She couldn’t be more right!
I truly feel my body become stronger. Bike rides with my husband have never been easier as we navigate the hills along the beach route we take. And at work, I can carry much heavier boxes than I have ever been able too. Also, I feel better after a workout. It takes me through my day in a way little else has before. It provides a boost and right now, as I finish my novel while still working all my other jobs, I need it!
My birthday is on the 14th of this month and right after it, I’m taking two weeks off of all booze and most sugars. I may be grumpy but my body needs the purge to reset and start new and better habits. Stay tuned for that one….
And as always, thank you, dear readers, for your support and encouragement. It means the world to me and helps me move forward in a more positive way.
I admit it. I had a Diet Coke.
But please! Allow me a story before you make judgement…
My husband and I went on a little getaway this past weekend after we both had some big deadlines to hit for our careers. He’s finishing producing/mixing an EP album and I just finished Part 2 of the book I’m writing, which was the big one of it!
Anyway, we went south east to lounge in natural hot springs (nature’s jacuzzi) in the middle of Palm Desert, CA. It was awesome. We got to know each other even better than we do while getting out with nature and just breathing.
Something I like to do on vacay is have a Diet Coke.
I know, I know. It’s not ideal but I like to splurge while vacaying and well, DC is part of that so….
I allowed myself a few. I have not, however, had one since we’ve been back (Sat) and I’m okay without any.
I was thinking. Can I be a limited DC drinker?
Now, I get it. I sound like an alcoholic asking if they can have the occasional drink…
But here’s the thing. What if I can? Is it so bad to have a few DC’s throughout the YEAR?
I quit the daily disgusting habit but a handful throughout the year…. well….
I know it will come down to if this opened the gateway for me to DC destruction. I do not plan to allow it but I will write again about this in a month to either assure you I haven’t touched Diet Coke or to admit I was woefully wrong.
Seeing that my weight is now at 141, I decided to change the title of these posts to reflect the truth.
I want to lose 20 pounds after I somehow gained a few pounds while I tried to lose… what?! I know…. (read post 4.)
This past week has been okay. I haven’t added any weight but I’m still not losing. It’s beyond frustrating.
The little changes I’ve made along the way feel good but they are clearly not enough and not as effective as I want them to be.
So, I’ve been doing some research for external help. Weight watchers app seems cool but another method has caught my attention.
This has been tremendously helpful to my husband, who maintains his chiseled physique with the gym, healthy eating, minimal drinking and intermittent fasting.
The idea is to fast for 16 hours a day. I’m not sure if this is going to work for me, but I’m going to give it a try since I don’t like to eat in the morning and typically wait till the afternoon to eat anyway. It’s not a diet per se, but a style of eating.
I am going to start this in a week because my husband and I are going out of town this week to do a little relaxing since I finished a large section of the book I’m writing and he finished mixing an album he’s working on (he’s an audio engineer/producer) and I don’t want to fast on vacation. I mean, come on….
BUT, I will be beginning this next week and in the meantime, I am going to accept myself and my body and feel confident rocking my bathing suit at the pool, all 141 pounds of me.
I messed up this past weekend and when I stepped on the scale this morning, I looked down in horror to find it reading 141.
So not only have I NOT LOST weight, I’ve GAINED!
When I was 25, I could eat a whole pizza and still lose weight. I don’t understand what has happened to my body. I had no idea metabolism could change this much.
But enough of this pity party for one.
I didn’t take it serious enough. I started the week off doing sit-ups and ended with pints of Baskin Robbins ice cream, bottles of wine and a second helping of spaghetti bolognese.
Lesson learned – I can simply no longer rely on my body to do what it did in my twenties. It needs my help now. As I enter my forties (I’ll be 41 in August,) there are things about my body that I have to accept.
It doesn’t mean I have to accept it and roll over though.
So without wasting anyone’s time with more words, I will write again in a week or so and this time, with serious action and hopefully, a much better report.
(I better because my husband and I are going on a little desert springs getaway after some deadlines we have and I will be getting in my bathing suit… wait, what?!)
Have faith, will lose
I need a moment to vent.
We all do. I believe it’s good for the soul…
I was just at 7-11 and wanted a soda but since I quit Diet Coke, I knew a Mountain Dew or Dr. Pepper was going to be full of unwanted sugar and calories and carbs. So I talked myself out of it, (literally, right there in front of the soda machine,) and moved on.
Then, I came home to make myself a late breakfast. I took out the sourdough bread and realized I’ll be having bread later when I have dinner with my family, ugh…. so I break one piece in half and only put one of those halves in the toaster.
I know these decisions are going to help me in the long run. I know this.
But it doesn’t make them any easier. I really wanted that soda and my over medium egg just isn’t the same without a couple slices of toast…
BUT I didn’t give in.
I did, however, take to my blog to vent. And there’s nothing unhealthy in that!
Thank you all…
Okay, it’s been a couple days since my very public proclamation about losing weight. And even though it’s been a mere 48 hours, I’ve already made some difficult choices and learned some important lessons.
But it’s only the beginning.
So, I thought I’d do what I often like to do with my travel posts and list some of my observations thus far, on this journey of weight loss:
Looking at the scale should not be a daily thing right now. The focus is on change and that damn thing only brings me down so I’m stepping off it for two weeks…
I can go without bread and not perish. I like my bread like a baby likes her bottle. Maybe it’s the Sicilian in me but bread has always been included in the meal. This habit of mine though is already being broken. I literally just ordered a grilled chicken taco without the tortilla (and you know what, it’s still delicious!)
Challenging yourself is awesome once you do it. Although I’ve been doing power yoga twice a week for quite a while it was only this past Tuesday that I decided to step it up a notch. I do the extra challenges my instructor offers and I try to stay in the more difficult poses for longer than I ever have… (It feels tiring, yes, but also great!)
Eating healthy will not be easy. There’s a reason “convenient” and “fast” food is typically not good for you. I’ve learned time has to be given to one’s diet if they want to be healthy. But I do believe it’s about finding a balance that works for you between what you have to get done and the time given to what you put in your body.
The support I’ve received from you, my readers, has already been incredibly helpful. From the likes to the social media props, from direct messages to pats on the back, I channel it all to keep me going and deeply appreciate it.
May we all help each other on our weight loss journeys. I’d love to hear more about your own…